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  • Reply Steph May 4, 2015 at 10:00 pm

    “To be repeatedly reminded that I have been thrown away. Discarded. Disregarded. My feelings repeatedly unconsidered. Trampled. Wrenched. The beauty and joy of our relationship forgotten. Erased. Nullified. As if I was a mistake, our relationship a mistake.”

    These words brought real tears to my eyes. I felt your pain because I too have been there, we all have. Like you have said let the lack of care and courtesy BE enough closure. It is a cliche saying but actions truly do speak louder than words. He is NOT worthy of your love, he may never have been. I once told a friend that I view love now as a woven quilt that is made up of many threads. These threads: respect, admiration, communucation, intimacy, trust….well they are all so important and delicate. If one thread (or several) becomes snared the quilt becomes undone, the love no longer worthy to cover and comfort you. He has shown that he is unable to truly cover and keep you in a way that you are worthy of. That is his issue. HIS. I know it’s not easy to deal with but as someone that has been exactly where you have been, I know you will be thankful for this time. Give yourself time, allow yourself to grieve, but know that you will love again. However, the next time it will with someone who is truly capable not someone who will have you feeling like you’re not enough. Because you are enough. *Hugs and love*

    • Reply tanya May 5, 2015 at 6:00 am

      I once told a friend that I view love now as a woven quilt that is made up of many threads. These threads: respect, admiration, communucation, intimacy, trust….well they are all so important and delicate. If one thread (or several) becomes snared the quilt becomes undone, the love no longer worthy to cover and comfort you.

      omg. this. all of this. everything about this.

    • Reply Gem May 8, 2015 at 1:44 pm

      “I once told a friend that I view love now as a woven quilt that is made up of many threads. These threads: respect, admiration, communucation, intimacy, trust….well they are all so important and delicate. If one thread (or several) becomes snared the quilt becomes undone, the love no longer worthy to cover and comfort you.”

      man, that’s so real. thank you for sharing and being encouraging. it’s weird to try and tell yourself all of these things you know to be true but yet you still cant really grasph it. but the reminders help.

  • Reply EBBBB May 5, 2015 at 8:01 am

    I wish I was near you to give you a hug because this really hit home for me. I’ve been there. More times than I would have liked. I won’t repeat the quote that really hit me b/c Steph already did…but Jesus.

    Things will get better…they are getting better. Just keep doing what you’re doing. This situation just wasn’t the right one for you. God is moving you forward toward something better.

    • Reply Gem May 8, 2015 at 1:44 pm

      but God! mmph He keeps calling me closer, forcing me closer – but when do i stop fighting????

      thanks ebbbb

  • Reply IvySt May 5, 2015 at 10:11 am

    Your words brought me to tears. Your writing is amazing. I’m sorry it had to be about this topic. I’m glad you have a platform to get this out. I’m praying for you. I love you. Be strong and stay focused on the positive.

    • Reply Gem May 8, 2015 at 1:46 pm

      thanks so much sis. i love you too. thanks for reading and allowing me to process this. i know youve been there. it feels like i’m alone, even though i know i’m not. i appreciate you more than you know.

  • Reply tanya May 5, 2015 at 12:04 pm

    i used to be all about closure. when i realized it was more about having the last word.
    and neither of them made me feel any better.

    sometimes you are just going to have to live with un-answers. will have to have to create a dialogue in your head that allows you to rest easy and move forward.

    it sucks. but it just is.

    im proud of your for using this arena to work through the formula of healing. you’ll find the answers sway. maybe before the questions..

    xo.

    • Reply Gem May 8, 2015 at 1:47 pm

      you’re absolutely right. thank you for being here.

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