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My “Aha!” Moment

June 10, 2011

This is what the "aha" moment feels like.

I wasn’t going to have a post today.  I was out all last night with B and Miss P to see an August Wilson play–“King Hedley II“–and drinks afterwards. Besides, I didn’t think I had anything good to say for this Friday; no “forgiveness” that needed public announcement. I figured I’d save my thoughts for Monday.

Until this morning happened…

I had just walked out of Dunkin Donuts with my iced hazelnut coffee in hand and a chocolate covered doughnut tucked away in my bag while The Foreign Exchange‘s “Take Off The Blues” blared through my earbuds. After recently becoming introduced to FE and seeing them in concert here in Pittsburgh a month or so ago, their album “Leave It All Behind” has been in heavy rotation1. So, I am quite familiar with the lyrics and instrumentation of all the songs–you should be too2.

The feel good songs on the album generally put me in a smooth mood, but something about the listening today was different. Perhaps it was the combination of strolling through campus in the sunny, 78 degree morning atmosphere  with an awakening surge of caffeine coursing through my bloodstream that established a new mindset to process the lyrics to “Take Off The Blues” in a new way.

…Nothing left to say to ease your fears, but I know just what to do, let me take good care of you. Kick off your shoes, take off the blues, and come to me. So much to do, so much to is new for you to see. You might as well come a little closer…

And before Phonte could finish the song, it came to me like an epiphany (word to Chrisette)–I AM HAPPY AND I LOVE MY LIFE! As a huge smile spread across my face, and a new pep in my step emerged, I felt truly at peace. Despite all the frustrations, failures, tragedies that have been bringing me sadness, sorrow, and anger over these last few months, I now feel truly at ease and comforted. Times have been difficult and many times I have felt defeated, but that darkness is passing and I see the dawn! And with new light I am ready to TAKE OFF THE BLUES!

It is freeing to feel such peace! I don’t have everything/everyone I want, I am not exactly where I think I should be, I am not accomplishing as much as I need to, but I actually feel OK about it all. I’m finally starting to once again make more concerted efforts not to stress about things I can’t control. I’m finally starting to get back into a habit of letting go of baggage that is weighing me down. I’m finally taking back the power to choose my emotional state of being. And I choose to be HAPPY.

I know that I am blessed. I know that I am loved. I know who I am and whose I am. I know that my future is bright and waiting for me to behold it. And I’m ready to move forward in this knowledge and live in it.

Thanks to all of my readers who have encouraged me and prayed for me. I appreciate your contributions to helping me get to a new place of clarity, after all my time spent under a dark cloud, stuck in a rut. It’s good to be in a better place and it’s good to share it with you all.

Have you had any “aha moments” this week? Has anything happened this week that made you unexpectedly feel good about yourself? If nothing else, are you ready to LIVE and enjoy the weekend?

Taking off the blues,
Gemmie Boo

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1Admittedly, I will play the hell out of an album before I move on to another one. I like to become intimate with music/artists I really like, and I do that best when the music is etched boldly into my auditory memory. My friends hate it *shrug*
2If you’re sleeping on The Foreign Exchange, I suggest you wake up IMMEDIATELY! They are the bomb dot com (word to Tamar Braxton). Phonte is one of the coolest, most hilariously ignant musicians I’ve ever met (and I’ve met my fair share of them) and had the pleasure to hang with–so you’d be supporting good music and good people. Do yourself a favor and add FE to your music library. #ThankMeLater. #Drizzy.

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9 Comments

  • Reply Wu June 10, 2011 at 1:27 pm

    Gem Jones for the win… flawless.

    Good for you. I deal with mild depression so my life is a series of “aha moments”. Just like yourself the catalyst in my moments are songs. I’m a firm believer in djs saving lives.

    Happy is a choice and from time to time you have to choose to be happy even when that option doesn’t make any sense.

    FE is dope. I copped their first CD way back when (I was a bit of a Little Brother stan) but I slept on the last two for awhile but it is good music.

    Again I’m glad for you and your choice. You made the correct one.

    • Reply gemmieboo June 10, 2011 at 3:38 pm

      I’m a firm believer in djs saving lives.

      you and me BOTH!!! *high five*

      my brother sent me a bunch of LB albums (all of them actually) and i havent gotten around to listening to them yet. but i LOVE FE so i’m lookin forward to going back in time to the LB joints.

      thanks for all the support Wu *hug*

      • Reply Wu Young, Agent of M.E. June 10, 2011 at 3:51 pm

        The first two LB cds are great. The others are so-so. Check out Big Pooh’s Sleepers too.

  • Reply miss t-lee June 10, 2011 at 3:35 pm

    Aw Gemmie. Good to hear! 🙂
    Sometimes you have to work at being happy, and the more you work at it, the easier it becomes.
    Have a good weekend!

    • Reply gemmieboo June 10, 2011 at 3:43 pm

      Sometimes you have to work at being happy, and the more you work at it, the easier it becomes.

      you aint neva lied, goon!!

      thanks and have a good weekend also 🙂

  • Reply tdlove June 10, 2011 at 3:50 pm

    Count it all joy..

    Nothing really spectacular happened to me this week that made me particularly happy. I just feel blessed and try to appreciate the little things all the time.

    Every time I walk into my apartment and smell the Febreeze Apple Mango Tango. Every time I get to share wisdom with a former student. Or when I make a friend laugh at my foolishness. The taste of chocolate ice cream. The sun shining through my window. Walking around Lake Merritt. Writing something on my blog (thanks for visiting btw).

    These are all gifts that God gives, when He doesn’t have to. In your darkest hour, take stock of all the good that is in your life and count it all joy. Makes the bad things not seem so bad. 🙂

    • Reply gemmieboo June 10, 2011 at 4:27 pm

      those are all great little things to appreciate.

      thanks for sharing!

  • Reply madscientist7 June 10, 2011 at 5:10 pm

    did you listen to little brother at all? if you did you will love phonte as a rapper as well.

  • Reply ellemarie360 June 15, 2011 at 10:30 am

    I’m about a million weeks late commenting on this..but this post…LOVE IT! And I too am a Phonte stan *as you are well aware I’m sure*..lol..I love Little Brother as a group and still listen to all of their albums on the regular…
    Anyway being happy with yourself is a beautiful thing, when we stop looking to others to make us happy or complete us is when we truly begin to shine!

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