I wasn’t going to have a post today. I was out all last night with B and Miss P to see an August Wilson play–“King Hedley II“–and drinks afterwards. Besides, I didn’t think I had anything good to say for this Friday; no “forgiveness” that needed public announcement. I figured I’d save my thoughts for Monday.
Until this morning happened…
I had just walked out of Dunkin Donuts with my iced hazelnut coffee in hand and a chocolate covered doughnut tucked away in my bag while The Foreign Exchange‘s “Take Off The Blues” blared through my earbuds. After recently becoming introduced to FE and seeing them in concert here in Pittsburgh a month or so ago, their album “Leave It All Behind” has been in heavy rotation1. So, I am quite familiar with the lyrics and instrumentation of all the songs–you should be too2.
The feel good songs on the album generally put me in a smooth mood, but something about the listening today was different. Perhaps it was the combination of strolling through campus in the sunny, 78 degree morning atmosphere with an awakening surge of caffeine coursing through my bloodstream that established a new mindset to process the lyrics to “Take Off The Blues” in a new way.
…Nothing left to say to ease your fears, but I know just what to do, let me take good care of you. Kick off your shoes, take off the blues, and come to me. So much to do, so much to is new for you to see. You might as well come a little closer…
And before Phonte could finish the song, it came to me like an epiphany (word to Chrisette)–I AM HAPPY AND I LOVE MY LIFE! As a huge smile spread across my face, and a new pep in my step emerged, I felt truly at peace. Despite all the frustrations, failures, tragedies that have been bringing me sadness, sorrow, and anger over these last few months, I now feel truly at ease and comforted. Times have been difficult and many times I have felt defeated, but that darkness is passing and I see the dawn! And with new light I am ready to TAKE OFF THE BLUES!
It is freeing to feel such peace! I don’t have everything/everyone I want, I am not exactly where I think I should be, I am not accomplishing as much as I need to, but I actually feel OK about it all. I’m finally starting to once again make more concerted efforts not to stress about things I can’t control. I’m finally starting to get back into a habit of letting go of baggage that is weighing me down. I’m finally taking back the power to choose my emotional state of being. And I choose to be HAPPY.
I know that I am blessed. I know that I am loved. I know who I am and whose I am. I know that my future is bright and waiting for me to behold it. And I’m ready to move forward in this knowledge and live in it.
Thanks to all of my readers who have encouraged me and prayed for me. I appreciate your contributions to helping me get to a new place of clarity, after all my time spent under a dark cloud, stuck in a rut. It’s good to be in a better place and it’s good to share it with you all.
Have you had any “aha moments” this week? Has anything happened this week that made you unexpectedly feel good about yourself? If nothing else, are you ready to LIVE and enjoy the weekend?
Taking off the blues,
1Admittedly, I will play the hell out of an album before I move on to another one. I like to become intimate with music/artists I really like, and I do that best when the music is etched boldly into my auditory memory. My friends hate it *shrug*
2If you’re sleeping on The Foreign Exchange, I suggest you wake up IMMEDIATELY! They are the bomb dot com (word to Tamar Braxton). Phonte is one of the coolest, most hilariously ignant musicians I’ve ever met (and I’ve met my fair share of them) and had the pleasure to hang with–so you’d be supporting good music and good people. Do yourself a favor and add FE to your music library. #ThankMeLater. #Drizzy.