HAPPY FRIDAY! I haven’t done a Friday Forgiveness post in ages and quite frankly I’m lonnnng overdue. I have testified to the power of forgiveness so I am very in tune with when I am in need to do so.
So this morning I woke up to a GroupMe chat message to a friend encouraging the ladies of our group to have a wonderful day and start the day off with a positive mood. And also to “change the channel” and say “Namaste” to those who confront us with negative energy. Namaste essentially means “salutations to use” and the gesture of namaste, with the hands in prayer position at the heart, is an acknowledgement of the soul in one by the soul in the other. If this wasn’t just the message I needed today!
For the last few weeks, I feel like I’ve been hit with a lot of negative energy lately. People have been rude, inconsiderate, and just down right difficult to work with and/or be around. For awhile, I was doing really well with letting things go, and rolling off my shoulder. I can’t control anyone else, only myself. But at some point (perhaps it was in conjunction with the added stress of my work life and the isolation I feel from my friends) I just flipped the switch and let every single thing get to me. And I find myself getting upset and annoyed by everything and everyone. I’ve got attitude for days and I’m just waiting for some one to give me the smallest of reason to hand it to them.
This is problematic. This is not healthy. I need to gain control of myself. Because at the end of the day, I can’t control how considerate, compliant or pleasant people are towards me, I can only control how I handle the situation. I can’t make things better by being irritated all the time. I’m just making myself miserable, and people will continue not to care, or get an attitude in return. And we have just been completely unproductive in our dealings. This has to stop.
For awhile I was trying to attend Bikram Yoga 1-2 days a week. It gave me a chance to give my body and mind a break, a deep stretch, and a chance to be rid of unwanted garbage (be it negative thoughts, stress, or toxins). For 90 minutes, I sweat my cares and aches away. I focus on me and what my mind and body are telling me it needs – something I don’t consciously do any other time. I haven’t been to Bikram in over a month, and I think I’m starting to see the mental and emotional effects. Because I am just one angry tornado swirling about. A huge mass of tension, stress, and impatience. I’m missing the reminders that I need to center myself and not let people change how I feel about myself and those around me. I need a good shavasana to serve as a reminder to just frikkin chill. Every yoga class ends with shavasana, which is intended to rejuvenate your mind, body, and spirit. But in my Bikram class, just after we assume this pose after our 90 min stretch fest, my favorite instructor will say to us, “don’t let anyone piss you off, don’t let anyone steal your peace. Because if you do, you lose.” And I have been losing! I need to be winning!
So today I am making myself a promise to stop letting people piss me off, and letting people steal my peace. Today I am making myself a promise to just change the channel and say, “Namaste.” Because I will not be weighed down by the negativity or faults of others. I have to forgive and move on, and find more productive ways to express my feelings when confronted with negative energy.
Have you had any similar issues, when people just come for you when they’re not sent for? How do you respond to negativity? Are you in need of some Namaste?
I bow to you,